~November 29, 2010~

I stopped fighting my inner demons... We're on the same same side now. I defiantly have the winter blues. The shitty white stuff covering my grass is getting to me.

Today I had someone come up to me and say they would kill to have guys like them like guys like me. I've never had a problem attracting guys, but I never attract the right ones. I would give up every single guy liking me for a true friend. One who doesn't put me down, pray that fall, or stab me in the back. I didn't know what to say to this girl, but I didn't have to say anything, the tears said it all. How embarrassing... I cried at school.

On a happier note I will tell you about my great weekend. I drove down to Escalante on Tuesday. and my family met me there on Wednesday. It was so nice to have a thanksgiving without family fights, or dysfunctions. Every night I hung out with Justin Pratt Porter. We drove around in his truck for countless hours. I've had a crush on Justin since I was a little girl. So it was nice to finally get to know him a little better. Little did I know we both have a crazy obsession with pants, we both iron and starch our pants every morning. Let me tell ya that boy isnt your everyday boy. His smile could light up a room(: and he has the cutest accent. We got him to play mile marker, and go hot tubing. Next time we will get him to play Barbie with us (; 28 days (:


This is my favorite song(:

Justin

~November 27, 2010~

So it's 1:14 in the morning and I cannot sleep. my heart is going to town. Its like a kindergarten crush. My heart is about to jump out of my chest just by the thought of this boy! I haven't felt this way in SO long. I'm quite ridiculous, but at the same time I love it.

Carlee is teaching me to flirt, I guess being in my 'dead zone' made me forget how to flirt.

~November 25, 2010~

Happy Thanksgiving (:

I'm Thankful or all my many blessings, my great friends, and loving family. This is defiantly the best thanksgiving I've ever had. Even if I don't get to run around town with a baseball bat on black friday. Oh, and I'm thankful for douche cake(:




It's crazy to think just two years ago I was sitting at the table with my cute little boyfriend's family talking about the day we were going to get married. As much as I loved him, I'm glad things didn't work out for us. Sometimes good things fall apart, so great things can fall into place.

Now its time to bring out the elastic waist pants. It's almost turkey time(:

~November 23, 2010~

Austin and I raced the blizzard to Escalante today (:
We didn't even hit one drop of rain. I'm excited for once I get to experience Thanksgiving with my WHOLE loving family. (minus my brother that I disowned).

Day Thirty:
Fifty Questions.

1. So, what did you do all day?:
ballroom, drove to Escalante, ate dinner, now I'm watching dancing with the stars.

2. What is the most expensive thing you've bought recently?
new battery for my car

3. Last concert (or show) you attended:
Just for the record.

4. Coolest thing you've gotten in the mail lately:
missionary letters, and college stuff.

5. Describe your favorite article of clothing:
black/gray washed out ripped jeans (:

6. Last video game played:
Call of Duty

7. How many CDs do you have by any ONE artist or group?:
i dont even know. Ipods are the new cd

8. What's for dinner?:
cheese burgers, vegetables, and home made french fries (:

9. Do you have any collections?:
not really.

10. What was the last board game you played?:
Sorry. I played it with my niece McCall

11. Who won?:
Me (:

12. Do you subscribe to any magazines?
seventeen magazine

13. Last movie you saw at a theater:
Inception?

14. Last movie you watched at home:
Fired up!

15. Do you have any special traditions only you or your family does?
for new years we put under wear on our heads, and bang pots and pans while walking around the block

16. What was the last thing you created:
suckourswagga.blogspot.com

17. Are you reading any books right now?:
Negative.

18. Do you remember your favorite book from childhood?:
rainbow fish. He had sparkly scales that he ended up sharing

19. What do you do when you can't fall asleep?:
Think or text

20. Have you ever randomly bumped into a actor/actress/or other generally famous person on the street?:
Ashley tisdale Pushed me at nationals in 8th grade (:

21. Are you more likely to read a book you've never read before if it's been made into a movie?:
I dont have time to read

22. Have you discovered what podcasts are yet? Do you have a favorite?:
I know, and no.

23.What is your favorite kind of food that you only get to have once a year:
candy cane icecream

24. What's that noise?:
the tv. im watching dancing with the stars

25. Last dvd box set you bought?
i honestly cant remember

26. Are there any musical artists that you used to like but don't anymore because their style of music changed too much?:
Linkin Park,

27. Are there any covers you think are better than the original?
MANY!

28. What food(s) do you go to the store for ASAP when you run out?:
diet cokee

29. Isn't there another appropriate response for "I love you" besides "I love you, too."?:
Yeah, theres you actually meaning it.

30. Last new artist that you listened to and really liked:
just for the record

31. Last new one you hated:
some girl kelli had me listen to, it isnt my style

32. In which country do you wish you'd been born?
england (:

33. When was the last time you were scared shitless?:
saturday driving in the snow ):

34. Do you like it when old ladies refer to you as "Dear", or "Hon", or "Sugar"?:
who would like that

35. What is your favorite physical flaw:
my foot thats an inch bigger

36. Share random fact about yourself:
I woke up half blind today

37. What's the best field trip you ever went on?:
the zoo (:

38. Have you ever dressed up for Halloween at work?:
i dont workk

39. Do you have any clothes that you pilfered or inherited from your parents?:
Nope

40. How old is "old" to you?:
26

41. What was the last free thing you've gotten?:
i dont know?

42. What's your favorite black and white movie?:
I dont watch black and white movies

43. What color would you like to bleed?:
black. haha it would be kinda cool

44. Do you know any Furries?:
Huh!?

45. If you have a wall calender, what kind is it?:
i donttt

46. Have you ever been to a convention?:
yesss. FBLA

47. If you were to dress up as a musician, which one would you be?:
i dont think i ever would

48. Do you have a thing about ruining new stuff by personalizing?:
i dont get this question

49. Ever have those moments when you realize that you somehow just cheated death?:
YES!

50. Does it boggle your mind?:
haha yes. i should of died like 50 times this past year.

~November 20, 2010~

Day Twenty Nine:
A quote you live by.

I'm not sure I live by this quote but it does touch my heart. this reminds me of a few people, enjoy the pictures of these young men.

~Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me bitter or cynical about love, but rather, it has shown me that if I wanted so badly to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.~

Every boy I've liked since 9th grade (that I can find a picture of)

~November 19, 2010~

Day Twenty Eight:
Another letter to someone in your past.

Dear person, I used to think so highly about you, you were my strength, and my shoulder to cry on. You were so strong and humble, you were someone who made me a better person. I trusted you with all my secrets and feelings. You wore confidence like make up. And it made you unlike any other person I know. We used to laugh, until we couldn't breathe. Just when I thought life couldn't get any better the bitch squad showed up. and tore us apart. Everything became such a competition, we would fight for each others attention. What the hell happened? We went from talking every single hour, to not talking, to avoiding eye contact. You left me when I needed you the most. Because of you I'm stuck here at Lehi High, I cry every morning before I go to school. I hate it that bad. Then you talk crap on me to a boy that I've liked since 8th grade? That's low.

Then I get a message from you (randomly) asking for forgiveness. My mind has stopped, and my heart is frozen. I have absolutely no idea what to do. Most people would say tell them to screw off. But its much more complex. I've put hours and hours of thought into this and I'm willing to give you a second chance. But only if your the old you. Cause the new you is part of the bitch squad! I'm ready to try, when you are...

~November 14, 2010~

Sadies was so much fun! here's a few pictures

Day Twenty Seven:

This is my ballroom team performing our Samba (my favorite). We learned this two days before we performed it. So its not the best. But please enjoy.

Btw... I'm the blonde(:

~November 11, 2010~

Day Twenty Six:
How do you feel.

When I look in the mirror I see a big fat lady. Now your probably thinking "wow dramatic teenage girl". And you are very right. I realize I am not fat, but I am not the size I used to be. The past month or so I have been very self conscious. I turned down a swimming date with a really cute boy. So I have come to a conclusion to start MY NEW 30 DAY CHALLENGE today.

Five minutes ago I threw away all my Halloween Kit Kats that I stole from the trick or treat bowl. And that is just the start my friends. Here is what is going to go down in the next 30 days.
I'm going to....

• Limit myself to one Red Bull a week.
• Run a mile every other day.
• 500 sit ups every day.
  
• Only eat out once a week. (minus Sadies)
• Do my Ab Circle Pro for 30 minutes every day (we'll see if this 200 dollar contraption works)
• Continue to kick it with 'The 500 Pound Club' ... But eat healthier.
• Think positive thoughts
• Pray

Please wish my luck my lovely readers (: and don't let me ruin my 30 day challenge... Again. Maybe if this makes me feel better about myself I will change my life style.... I said Maybe.


BTW: Paul and I are competing tomorrow morning! Wish us luck!
We have a hot date that night. (sadies)

~November 9, 2010~

Day Twenty Five:
What are you looking for.

Many people ask what I'm looking for... Well that's a very good question cause every day I seem to change my mind. My mother bugs me every day that I need to find someone I care about. Someone to help me get out of the 'dead zone'. But I really just don't know. I watch cute movies like Dear John and The Last Song and it makes me want a cute little boyfriend. But then I see the way my good friend's boyfriend treats her and I'm quickly back to square one.

The last few days I've been thinking and thinking about what I truly want. And now I defiantly know. I do want a man in my life. Nothing too serious. He doesn't even have to be my boyfriend, just someone that makes my heart skip a beat. I'm ready to find someone who will be there for me. I want to be able to look into the audience (when I'm dancing) and see him in the front row smiling. Someone who will sit on my roof while we eat fried rice and drink red bull together. Some one who will walk around the block with me 3492043 times without complaining. Someone who's not embarrassed to be with me. The kind of guy who will make me laugh when I'm having a bad day. I'm ready to wake up to sweet texts, and have late night phone conversations. I don't think I'm ready to fall in 'love' but maybe.... I do know that I am ready to fall in 'like'. I really want to find my high school sweetheart. <3

~November 8, 2010~

Day Twenty Four:
a letter to someone in your past


Dear Person (I will not mention his name),
I can't even begin to explain the things that pop into my head when I think about you. You make me angry. Every time I see your name pop up on face book, or on my phone the devil takes over my body and i forget my manners. I've never wanted to punch someone in the face SO bad.
I can't believe I fell for your little tricks. Your so full of yourself its ridiculous. Every time we got in a fight you called my mommy to fix it. I cant wait until you see the bridges you've burned... And then realize there's no other way back home.
I hate the way you call my mommy, I hate the way you suck up to my family, I hate the way they think your so perfect, I hate your attitude, I hate the way you would come mother always made to see you, I hate the way my mother always made me forgive you, I hate when you sing in the car, I hate when you hug me when I clearly cant stand you, I hate all the notes you left on my car, I hate how you make me feel so little, I hate how you think your better then everyone else, I hate the way your always so health, I hate the way your good at everything, I hate how you always have awesome luck, I hate that you broke all of our promises, and most of all I hate your big brown eyes.
No matter how much you beg, plead, or how many times you call my mom, wait outside my house, or call my cell phone. I will NEVER forgive you. And I will never ever ever ever come back to you. I don't want to be friends, so leave me alone.

Love, JaCee

FYI: I'm normally a really nice, caring person. If you knew this was you would understand why he makes me so angry.

~November 5, 2010~

Once again FAIL for JaCee Pratt.
Day Twenty Three:
whats going on lately.

Ah i've been so busy.. but its been worth it.

I Have registered for the ACT, and the ACT Prep class. (starts tomorrow)


I've been dancing like CrAzY(:
Paul and I got a new Samba. and we already have our Cha cha. So only 3 dances to go.... and then we get to clean them all. yay (:
I've seen my ex boyfriend Jordan a few times. He's changed sooooo much! I've very proud of him. he has a good head on his shoulders..... Finally.


I got the new Motorola Defy(: it came out November 3rd (:

~November 2, 2010~

I'm behind as usual....
Day Twenty Two:
The little things that make you smile.

1. My nephew Asher, he's such a stud(: his smile makes me whole day. (i know he's not smiling in the picture..... iIt was nap time)

2. A good pair of heels that make you feel pretty(:

3. The hug someone gives you right before you cry.

4. Waking up to cute texts... And cute texts in general.

5. Making wishes at 11:11

6. The colors black and white

7. Watching little kids dance.... So cute.

8. The season Autumn. I love the fall colors.